Sometimes I ask myself if it is worth it atall, I now understand why so many people are mean and stand offish in their ways. The answer is they no longer want to let people in, because they have been hurt over and over again by the people they cared about. Taking stock of my life I realized that many people who I have tried to stand by have one way or the other hurt me deeply. They have either dropped me by the way side or tried to tarnish my image. I have decided to care only for me and myself alone from now on, and then some other things that matter will find their way into my life.
If you ask me why I am just realizing this, I have actually thought about it a lot of times, just that I did not pay much attention to it. Yesterday night I was watching #orangisthenewblack , 2nd season where Piper lied just because Alex wanted her to so that their lives will not be in danger, piper insisted she would only tell the truth but at the court room, she decided to lie, only for piper to come back and apologized that she actually told the truth (this made piper an offender because she has been presumed to lie under oath). That is where I stopped before my thoughts took the better part of me and I came to the conclusion that people would always do what is best for them, so what makes me different when I chose to do what is best for me?
Well my thoughts for this Sunday actually........but then again Jesus did care more for others than they cared for him.
Life is hard!
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